All i know about my self and identity came to me through Jesus, and all i know about Jesus came to me through Mary. So all i am is thanks to our Lord and our Mother.

My relationship with Mary began in my heart and soul at the age of fifteen the moment I came to meet Jesus.

During the Lent of 2009 I wrote a piece about Our Lady Of The Rosary, which focussed on the sacred mysteries of our Lord’s passing over from sorrow to glory.

One of the pieces, which follows, is a meditation I wrote before the Blessed Sacrament immediately after praying the Stations of the Cross.

This piece focuses on the fourth station. I pray it may assist you in your walk with Jesus and Mary.

My Meditation on the Station of The Cross, where Jesus meets His afflicted Mother.

Mary my mother you reveal to me the depths of love in your heart for me, and for all, in this divine glance of agony.

“A sword would pierce your heart,” just as Simeon prophesied in the temple in Jerusalem at the joyful mystery of the presentation of our Lord, our baby Jesus.

And here in this moment of your agony, you reveal your grace in our consolation, through the merciful gaze of your most blessed countenance, as you look, pierced to the heart, to your most Beloved Son, the gaze which reveals the mystery of the greatest love story of all time, the love between two virgins, our mother and her divine son, as if it is in this momentary glance God's purpose to reveal the fulfilment of the scene at the very genesis of humanity when Adam and Eve first laid eyes on each other - the opening and the closure of an age, caught in one gaze of and with the venom of the devil's sword piercing Her most unspeakably for our salvation, consolation and empowerment. With the help of Mary, mother of the Son of affliction, and the grace of God, I see into the unspeakable consolation of and through this piercing affliction.

In this divine glance is the lesson for all who are learning to ‘see.’

If we can summon the grace to but look out through our pain and our own agonies and wretchedness and into the eyes of God's creation, it may be into the face of the next bird or dog or man or woman or child, or any living creature, and really look into the eyes and face, and, through those eyes, to the very heart of that creature, we will surely 'see' into the vast depths of the mystery of this most divine of all glances in all time, and in to the mystery of how God himself, through his only son, this Jesus, loves us, is in love with us, with an infinite thirsting love.

This glance, foretold by Simeon in the same temple only days after his birth, at the dedication of his life for this moment of agony, for each newborn child of God, of whom, he, the son of God, Christ Jesus, is the firstborn.

In this glance we see deeply into the mystery of Christ’s life, death and resurrection.

These mysteries are revealed to us through the mother of God herself.

We see in the Gospels the picture of Jesus, as in this scene of their glance of agony, the picture of our divine master, through the very eyes of Mary, and, through her eyes, in to a most priviliged communion with her most sacred heart.

It is only with the grace of Mary and through her perfect vision that we are able to glimpse into the mysteries of her divine son.

This is why every word, every verse of sacred Scripture, is packed with mystical and divine revelation, if we but align our hearts and minds and bodies into formation with Mary.

Mary is the first Apostle, not Peter, not John, not Paul. Mary helps God reveal the divine image of Jesus in to our hearts. It was Mary who is the least visible in the gospels, and because of this, it was and is, by this divine transparency, Jesus, whom she makes the most visible.

This is the Charism, the divine vocation of Mary, to reveal her son to us.

Mary has, through God's divine plan, provided us with the perfect apostle, and our first apostle.

When we look at Jesus and to Jesus let us pray for the grace to look and to see with the attitude of the heart and soul and body of our blessed mother Mary.

Mary is the one who best helps God reveal the joy, the light, the agony, and the glory of Christ.

The mysteries of Christ’s life, death and resurrection are perfectly revealed through the word if we allow our beings to be so utterly possessed by the sacred heart and essence of Mary. Mary it is who instructs us. Mary is the painter of the divine image. Mary is the mother of the divine master.

Hence the rosary is the Mother's key to unlocking deeper revelation of the mysteries of the Christ, the suffering servant.

The rosary teaches us how to take hold of the hand and that gaze and the heart and the being and the presence of Mary, how to look to and for and at Jesus, with and through her.

If we can receive her sight, we can receive his sight.

This is my meditation and prayer and hope and expectation - what I am believing for - in communing with Mary and Jesus, that he, in his great mercy, would concede to bless me with the gift of even a glimpse into His vision and sight, that I might see the fullness of his glory and love.

I pray, I know, that he will come through again, for the praise of his glorious name, with yet another of his unspeakable miracles for all who place their trust in him.

Each mystery of the Rosary is a divine scene in God's story and plan. Each scene has and is the divine snapshot of God's truth and love and glory, revealed to us through the eyes and heart and witness of our Blessed Mother.